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everything will be alright

  • Nov. 20th, 2009 at 3:57 PM


Thank you sweetheart for being there when I need you.
Thank you for everything.
I will always pray that you and my brother will last long and if ever you and him were to be married, please be nicer!
haha, and cheer up. Life may treat you badly but remember to keep the faith cus' everything will be alright :)
Smile always alright cus' you never know who's looking.
Stay strong :)



On the verge of giving up, but I gotta stay strong cus I know everything will be alright soon. I need a holiday soon and this time, it is for real. I am going to save up, and with enough cash, I'm gonna go away.
  • Mood: distressed

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I will be your bestfriend

  • Nov. 16th, 2009 at 6:13 PM

So now is the period where everyone gets all stressed up over assignments again. Unfortunately I am one of them too. Currently trying to finish up a few assignments but then, I am still in a daze on what is expected for the assignments. I am thinking of staying in school every day so that I could use the net since mine at home is hopeless. I'm freezing cold right here but what to do.. Pretty worried for field supervision next Wednesday but I got to do it anyway. JIAYOU EVERYONE!


P.s boyfriend isn't feeling well so.. get well soon boyfriend :)

  • Mood: calm

The alphabet starts with ABC; numbers starts with 123, but love starts with you and me

  • Nov. 13th, 2009 at 7:32 PM



THIS BOY HERE DOESN'T KNOW THAT I MISS HIM SO MUCH.
SO MUCH TILL THE RAIN CAN'T STOP POURING.
:(
  • Mood: sad

pictures and some memories will have to help me through

  • Nov. 9th, 2009 at 5:26 PM



Some pictures from boyfriend's first gig @ L-cube last Saturday. More on facebook. One word about the gig: awesome! The atmosphere was wild; people moshing around and head-banging and stuff. That is definitely my first and last time going to gig, unless my boyfriend is performing again or he is with me. Saturday was well-spent with them..and well, Edited Playlist was great ! :) 


Currently in school now, using the net to find some lesson plans online. I can't help but feel stress.. Pressure pressure pressure. I need some time to chill. Sometimes I feel like giving up, like totally but I know that I can't do anything better than this. So I got to hang on, got to hang on as time passes by. I'm feeling vexed about some things, especially things at home. I can't wait to move; hope it doesn't get worst.


Got to focus now. Till then, take care. 
  • Mood: blank
  • Music:Avenged Sevenfold-Dear God

te amo

  • Nov. 5th, 2009 at 2:12 PM

Things have been good nowadays. People have been sweet and nice and caring and always ensuring that I smile especially my dearest boyfriend. Little things that he does make me appreciate him much more and well, love him even much more. I know I shouldn't be too mushy but I can't help it. hahaha. I've known of people who doubt our relationship but we will prove you wrong. 

I don't know if you guys are reading this but all the best for your first gig Edited Playlist ! :) Will see you guys down there. 
  • Mood: relaxed

This feeling I can't explain

  • Nov. 3rd, 2009 at 1:32 PM

Whenever I am alone, I start to wonder about things. Then I start to think and assume things. I don't know why but I feel so fucked up about attachment. The feeling of being in the same centre as Elizabeth is great, so that we can share notes and bitch about all the teachers there. But something is holding me back. The idea of field supervisor assessing your lesson plans is scary and overwhelming. I don't think I can do it. I'm scared, helpless and so so so annoyed with things now. My boyfriend is not helping either. He says I have mood swings. Ya, maybe I have.. Okay, I miss my boyfriend now. 


Let's chill. Relax. 



  • Mood: sad

If only..

  • Nov. 2nd, 2009 at 4:41 PM

Apologies for the disappearance once again. Been fickled-minded about things again. Right now, all I wish for is for my brother to start talking to me once again. Only God knows how much I miss talking anything to him, how much we used to laugh at every single things and talk like siblings do. I'm letting go of my ego, which I don't really do. For the power of love and relationships, I'm willing to be silly to make things right. Every day I pray that things will be as usual, and that somehow God will protect him. May things get better soon and that every single mistakes and quarrels are erased. 


Planning to move over to blogspot, but we shall see how :) 
  • Mood: cold

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cold :(

  • Oct. 28th, 2009 at 5:21 PM

 Outside studio now, sitting at cluster. Waiting for SCC to start. I'm freaking cold, I don't know why. I'm shivering, LOL. Monthly performance later, can't wait. One day, I want to perform again. How I miss that feeling of performing :) 



I'm hungry but I can't eat. Ulcers! 

take life easy

  • Oct. 25th, 2009 at 10:41 PM

Not feeling well. Again, I have overworked myself. I have to stop thinking and giving pressures to myself. I have to learn to be happy and take life easy, just like what my lecturer always say. Dad bought for me brands berry essence for me to drink, to ensure that I have all the vitamins needed. I am so glad for the concern. Today, I went around finding for the right house but fuck you, all because of you, all our efforts are wasted. Back to living independently, and hopefully this time round, I will be a stronger superwoman. 


I am sick, so where are you? 



  • Mood: sick
  • Music:do you remember-aaron carter

What can I do?

  • Oct. 23rd, 2009 at 5:49 PM

Finally,  first week of school is done ! Pretty shagged and all I want to do after school is to sleep and sleep. I wonder how will things be after moving out. Got to be physically prepared man. So anyway, school has been pretty interesting. Love the hardworking mood that we are having now, hope it lasts forever <3 This semester's modules are a lot more focusing on families, so it can get pretty emotional but I'll manage. Been having cravings for sushi since like few days ago and I think I influenced my classmates a lot on eating it. HAHA! Bought sushi on the way home just now and I feel much better now after eating it. Going to spend my Friday night watching some sappy love movies online and indulging in sushi and iced milo. I am feeling pretty annoyed at some things but oh wells, things happen always anyway. Going to rain now, great weather to chill myself. 


We'll see how it goes. I have nothing else I can say. 



  • Mood: groggy

Aku wanita yang punya cinta di hati

  • Oct. 18th, 2009 at 1:46 PM

School starts tomorrow and this time round, no more fooling around like I used to, sleeping late at night and slacking around like nobody's business. This semester, I have to work harder, since last semester's results was total crap. This semester, somehow, I have to learn to manage time well and learn to manage my emotions too. Next month will be a busy month I suppose, with moving out on my to-do list. Sigh. Sometimes, it is much better if we all learn to give in and talk things out nicely rather than thinking about ourselves and being egoistic. Now that things happened, all we do is to blame each other. Don't you find it rather tiring? 


Meeting Aisyah for mini-shopping later. I want to get out from this daily mess soon. 
  • Mood: crushed

Friday.

  • Oct. 16th, 2009 at 12:19 PM

I'm always dreaming of lyrics. Omg, maybe I am too obsessed with SCC  till I even dreamt of it. HAHA. So anyway, I am thinking of writing down every random things that I want to do and then do it on every weekend. Then I'll choose one friend each and ta-daa, let's us do the activity together. ^^ Got to think, got to think. 


Byebye. I want to practise my keyboard, ^^. 
  • Mood: good

Let us make this right

  • Oct. 15th, 2009 at 1:59 PM

When I start not to bother about things, it just means I don't already care about things regarding you. When I just don't even bother to talk to you, it just means you are on your own now. Sometimes, it is easy said than done. Being soft-hearted, I'm always giving in so as to make things right. Eventually, I hurt myself indirectly. Sometimes I wonder why are they being so ignorant towards others' feelings and only care about their special half. Does that means that all those years spent from birth are meaningless, I wonder? As I think of the future, eventually I know I have to start being independent. Things might get messy and unexpected but I am always thankful for all the company I have with my group of friends. This assurance they gave made me feel secured and looking forward to every single day in my life. 


To you, no matter how idiotic you can be, and always trying to make me feel like I don't need you, I still will love you, no matter what. 
  • Mood: optimistic
  • Music:Kelly Clarkson-Already Gone

Mission accomplished

  • Oct. 13th, 2009 at 11:46 AM


 
A day filled with fun, laughters and special bonds created between us. It was great to see everyone having fun. Besides that, things are all right too.  Glad that things are cleared up and thank you, friend. Thank you for that company though it was already late at night. Now, I'm looking forward for more happy days ahead. More outings soon ! :) 
  • Mood: happy
  • Music:crazier-taylor swift

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everything i ask for

  • Oct. 12th, 2009 at 1:23 AM

Suddenly it feels like deja-vu. I have no idea what is going on either. been coughing non-stop since Friday. Wanted to go to the doctor but it is just a waste of my money. Never mind, I'll be fine the next day, I hope.. 8-| So anyway, just got back from SCC chalet yesterday. You, thanks for making me realised who you really are and well, it all comes down to this one word : disappointment. I'm trying not to think about it but it seems so hard, I wonder why. Well, I have an ukulele now and I ought to be happy but.. 


P.s Assurance. 
  • Mood: disappointed
  • Music:Starlight tears-Kim Yoo Kyung

Bon voyage !

  • Oct. 3rd, 2009 at 7:28 PM

After hours of waiting, finally it was time for them to go. Hugged, and she told me something which made me realised how much she has been part of my life now. Wasn't feeling too good, and I became even weak after I saw him trying to control his tears from falling. Glad to know they have arrived there safely and now all I can do is to pray for their safety over there. One week is not going to be so long but I am already starting to miss their presence. Sometimes I wonder, what will happen if one day, they are not around any more. Will I be falling even deeper than what I have already been now? This sucks but I have to be strong and independent, just like A always told me to be. Guess I have to learn. 


  • Mood: sad

i am trying

  • Oct. 2nd, 2009 at 1:45 AM

Sometimes, it is better to mind your own business.
I am getting agitated at every single thing right now.
Feeling sick and weak, and I hate to be like this.
I need uku. 

  • Mood: gloomy
  • Music:colbie calliat-falling for you

even if the sky is falling down

  • Oct. 1st, 2009 at 2:35 AM

To Down Crew :

 

Enjoy the song yo. Even if the sky is falling down down down down :) 

Life has been getting better every single day. Awesome Wednesday with the kids @bvps and montessori centre and SCC people. Coming days will be packed with things that will make me go highhhhhhhh. Can't wait can't wait for everything.



baby, don't worry, you are my only :) 
  • Mood: calm
  • Music:down-jay sean ft lil wayne

down down down down down

  • Sep. 27th, 2009 at 12:09 AM

 


So baby don't worry, you are my only, 
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down, 
You'll be my only, no need to worry, 
Baby are you down down down down down,


Even if I am starting to lose faith in you, I will try not to. We got to meet up soon, cus you have no idea how much I miss you.






  • Mood: silly

20.09.2009

  • Sep. 23rd, 2009 at 11:05 AM

 
Remember about me not wanting to celebrate Hari Raya and whatsnot? Thanks to someone, I've changed my mind. Raya this year was pretty much unexpected, but that is what made it memorable. Covered not much houses as compared to last year but money-wise, it was awesome. Haha. Everyone was rather emotional in the morning and it dragged on till we met our relatives but all went well and I'm thankful that things are okay now.. Second day, nothing much too. Started late so we visited around two or three houses? Most probably covering Dad's sides on Saturday and Sunday.. Haha. 

As for work, it has been pretty much okay too. The kids are much more enthusiastic as compared to the previous class so it made our job much easier. Even though they are notorious, but after all they are kids, aren't they? :) A few more sessions with them before it ends. Got an offer to do parties, I got to consider about it. After work, got psycho-ed by Sultan to continue playing bass. Haha. You buy for me bass ah boy ! >.< So I'll see about it. 

All right, I'm off to do my stuffs. SCC later. Hope things won't get too awkward later, haha ! :) 

 
  • Mood: weird
  • Music:Aizat-Hanya kau yang mampu

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